a Fer
rubbing my hands over my face in a desperate attempt
n waking up like this. Dazed, di
g back. I could recall every detail-the intensity of his touch, his scent, the overwhelming sensati
how I felt ever
y girl in high school dreams but unlike all the boys I'd
king beneath the surface. Something Lucas was hiding behind all that charm and perfection. S
l the butterflies that fluttered in my stomach every time he smiled at
h him, but because I wanted to stop feeling this way. I wanted to get ri
deep fear that telling him would ruin ever
lieve my looks would
ractive. And even though people constantly told me otherwise-even though I was often consi
tly pastel shades, adorned with bows and lace, roma
rs from abuse don
ady for Lucas's 24th birthday party, a
couldn't escape from. And as I stared at myself in the mirror,
lightly. My roommate stepped in, eyes
ere single, I'd hit on you." She winke
ard for me to take, even
in the black velvet dress. It had a slit on the right
Nat pulled a worn-out pack of cigarettes from her bag and
and went on, "You look amazing, seriously. They're just
ggeration," I said, slipping on a pair of black heels
nk about Lucas's family. Unlike most we
uicy rumor. They would be completely anonymous-if
ght. That, and the fact that I'd chosen this party
ut on my best outfit and mentally rehearsed
to forget anything important. But the moment the driver pulled up
path leading to the house. For a second, I genuinely thought
stone path, and let me tell you, w
thump of bass-heavy mus
ors of the mansion-where a few staff members were welc
handeliers, bold and even bizarre decor. Irregular g
h everything else- subtle colors dulled by harsh lighting, yet they pulsed
by the naked honesty in the images, one depicti
every passing second. I felt out of place,
en I s